March has been a bit of a heavy month. But in a way that I understand. I had to move through a lot of emotions and accept that I have patterns in my behaviour that are just not serving me. That it’s time to let go. It has been a month of growth pains and I understand more than ever the importance taking ownership of a situation.
So I’m sort of sitting in the rubble of it all, in the ashes of everything that has had to be burnt. Mercury is out of retrograde and here I am; sooty and with bruises, but I can feel new life growing underneath me, deep in the soil.
That was March. Now, April is here and it’s almost like I can hear her say Now it’s up to you to tie up your hair and deal with shit. I feel ready.
This month is divided into two parts. I have about two weeks to myself, during which my plan is to do a small project with a combination of illustration and french. I will of course keep you updated on this!
The second part of the month, Aurélien and I travel to the US for a west coat road trip. I can’t wait! We will visit San Francisco, the Grand Canyon, Yosemite and many there places. I will of course make a movie about it.
As for my BuJo, I am trying a new layout for the monthly spread. I find it clear and I like it a lot. The numbers and symbols in the margin are astrological pointers (because I’m a total star child).
I have also been experimenting with different weekly spreads lately. Right now I like this one a lot. A few daily pointers and a whole page dedicated to gratitude. This week I am also trying to write down my daily plans in my BuJo, instead of having one on my computer.
Since my french course finished last week, I have freed up a lot of time for drawing. I have created my own french curriculum to study at home, but that won’t take all morning. So now I will have time to really catch up with both ideas for illustrations, update my web shop and other platforms. I will also continue to apply for jobs and other opportunities.
We have finally settled in our new apartment in CD Nueva, a small neighbourhood of Santo Domingo just by the sea. Both Aurélien and I feel so energised and I photograph the sunrise every morning.
I got a frame for the poster Christin gave me when she visited. It felt very symbolical, to buy something that can’t easily be packed into a suitcase. It felt like putting down a root somehow. Aurélien bought us a second hand divan also. It’s so soft.
It felt very good to set up my desk space. I have re-organised my papers and thought about new projects I want to do. I will get some extra free time now after the french course has finished.
This was from an afternoon a few days ago. I love the moment just before tidying away the art materials after an inspiring creative session. It looks like what an exhale feels like, I think.
We are moving apartments. And it’s not just that. Everything feels a bit up in the air right now and it’s freaking me out. But I have a strong feeling in my gut telling me to sit tight, to not make any big decisions. This is a storm I have to wait out. And this is difficult for someone like me. I am a doer. I work through things. I don’t wait around. But there is possible a lesson here about grace. So I’m bowing my head down and get on with things, trusting.
This morning I sat down with my coffee to journal as I always do to start my day. Then I realised I had left my notebook at the new apartment. I was frustrated for one second and then decided to stop, as it would not help. Instead, I grabbed scrap paper and started jotting down whatever came up. When I collected the pieces, an emotional journey emerged.
I found this thought provoking list on Caroline’s blog and wanted to give it a go myself.
Confidence is: knowing that I am allowed to
exist as myself in this world.
Identity is: chosen and changeable
I am from: a place by the sea
The thing I love most about myself is: my empathy and patience
The thing I love most in others is: active listening skills
I need: a lot of alone time
I relax by: taking my time and be mindful in daily actions
I’m inspired by: japanese culture ♥︎
I can’t live without: silent, slow paced days close to nature
Influence is: not good or bad per se, but it’s always important to know who one is influenced by and why.
I’m currently listening to: Humbert Humbert, when I’m not listening to podcasts
I’m watching: the new season of RuPauls Dragrace!
I’m excited by: small everyday things
I trust: my intuition
I’m impressed by: too much, it’s something I have to work on
I feel complete when: I am mindful
I aspire to: live by my own conditions
I believe in: my ability to adapt to whatever comes my way
I’m working on: creating a life that empowers me
I practice self love by: making sure I sleep enough, drink water, exercise and eat my fibers
Because to me, feminism isn’t feminism if it isn’t intersectional ♥︎
Sorry, I just HAD to come on and share this amazing creature that I found out about yesterday. I mean, look at their face – they are SO sceptic. And you know I love anything sceptic. It looks like a Wes Anderson character.
That’s all for now.
Så mycket hände i februari. I början av månaden samlar jag på vackert ljus, dricker vätskeersättning och knogar på. Springer på jobbintervjuer, pluggar och ser till att mysa till det om fredagarna. Aurélien och jag drömmer om framtiden och skickar ett mycket viktigt mail. Om några månader hoppas jag kunna skriva mer om detta. Till slut kommer min fina Christin på besök! Vi spenderar en vecka i Santo Domingo, firar min födelsedag med GT och äter svensk choklad. Sedan bär det av på äventyr. I en vecka reser vi utmed nordkusten. Vi går på stränder, letar efter sjökor, surfar och vilar i solstolar. Det var februari.
February was busy and eventful. I went on job interviews and kept busy until my friend Christin came visiting from Sweden. She brought chocolate, books and happiness. We spend a week in santo Domingo before traveling north. We walked on beaches, looked for manatees, went surfing and rested in sun chairs.